A sphere of Silver. The color of none yet the color of many.

2:41 AM I tend to smile, even when i know i myself is faking it. That's my facade for staying in control even i myself know that I'm pretty sensitive.

I guess it's just this defensive phase i put myself in whenever people, regardless of whether in spite or in their amusement comments on something so blatantly that it is obvious that was meant to be a personal attack. I would comment and reply that I don't give a hoot about what was said and just laugh it off in front of others.



But deep inside I feel fucked up and pissed.

Yes, of course I could take obvious jokes, we laugh along, that's fine. But that doesn't mean people won't take to heart the shit that was meant to be provocative. You stupid enough to thibk people would just feel good hearing you pointing out an obvious sign saying they suck? But really, would you not think we ourselves doesn't know better? Have they even seen any decisive moments where we were blaring and bragging otherwise? Have you got no bloody idea what politeness is?


If yes, well we probably deserve every single shit of it.

If no,

just shut the fuck up.

It may be fine for others, but I don't find it 'fine' for me. I take these types of things deeply and would rather you think before you speak. Find better ways to criticize someone's weak points and it'll be a day longer you'll live without people plotting to stick a knife in your head.


Don't go judging people by how they would appear to you, it was just that I never had the intention to stick out amongst us, but that doesn't mean I'm weak