A sphere of Silver. The color of none yet the color of many.

12:46 AM And yet today held a surprise for me when I knew the development for Clubs. I was quite torn about it, but i know, even if i didnt want to, it'll be better that way.

Diamonds and I talked more, she isn't really in a good situation either, but right now, all I can, and want, is to give her the emotional support she may need. The place that we talked about, the place where we all belong, it'll be there, and we'll be there. (:

I told Nine today about my situation either on the way home. She was kind, and she understood and just that I am grateful for it. Thank you for listening to my soft rambles, and it was interesting, to know more of you too.


I kinda am going through some rough tearings of emotions. My family isnt of the best condition, and my lack of effort in my studies has started to affect myself due to some guilt-talk, which i then realized was necessary and of course some other pesonnal matters. Thanks for everyone who listened to my troubles, I always feel abit better when you guys do.

When Wilson and I talked, he pointed out that I looked quite emotionless some of the time, and that he had taken it as usual for it.

Well, that's not it actually. I don't put up this face normally.
It's when I'm feeling down, deep in thoughts and crap.
I don't really want to tell people more about myself, I don't want people to think im putting that face up to gain attention, to look as though i need the pity and concern all the time.
But then, in the end, after being devoid of it, I.. kinda yearn for being looked out for.
I really do hope, and want friends that cares about you welfare, not just, wish and hope that your emo period goes by quickly, and laugh around as just 'friends'
I like to be among people, I like to entertain, I like to be popular, I want to look out for friends that I know that truly cares, I want to fix my fucked up face and in my breaking heart, I like Clubs.

To Kach, fight on! I've said much to you on msn, so there's don't need to worry. I am sure we never seen you in the way you had seen yourself as, you will always be Kach.



And so what's the next hand the deck will show to me?