--[MindScape]--

WHATTHEF**K

2010-03-31T03:08:00.001+08:00

Why are you guys still reading this. wtf man, tsk you guys should be ashamed of prying into other people's personal life.

THIRDCARD

2009-02-05T22:22:00.002+08:00

I spent like a near one and a half hour staring at my 3rd year Prescribed and Complimentary Elective Courses slip arguing with myself what I wanted to choose so that my life in Year 3 won't be hell.

In the end I put Digital Matte Painting in all three choices for my PE and Audio Creation, Digital Photography and Acting in my CE. Then at the very last minute I /facepalmed at my stupidity and canceled out Audio Creation and Digital Photog and swapped those places. Fuck the fact that I will face hell sooner or later for doing that, but I'm gonna go for the one that I have the interest in.

I just very well hope Ms Pat will take my PE choices with a rather more opened mind. = 3=

LUNARYEAR

2009-01-27T18:41:00.002+08:00

Well, CNY mood came and went, it was fun to hang out with my cousins and chat about what we did last year.

I'm doing CODPIT now, I think i've surrendered to the sad fact that i'm merely doing this to pass this effin course. I had quite a motivation to ace this module at first, but because of some things here and there, clueless teammates who needed to be spoonfed, i sort of gave up. Abit sian, but i just hope to get this over with, and re start this project as my own creation some time later.

I think i'm starting to get over the fact with Clubs. I'm just wushing the best and hope Clubs can stay as much as how we were during the past days.

Z

2009-01-20T23:29:00.000+08:00

So apparently I lost my thumbdrive. I'm praying that i'll get it back. Lots of personnel work in there, as well as homework that I don't wanna redo.

I'm not the type that forgets my thumbdrive.. I'm not sure whats gotten into me lately, proably all the stress and shit. Meh.

RAVINGDUSTRABBITS

2009-01-19T00:45:00.002+08:00

Spring cleaning = Nose marathon. The dust in my room, i can't say how many dust storms rolled through me when I had to clean up piles of animation paper from last year.

Stupid blocked nose is giving me a headache at the same time.

I think I've been quite busy cleaning, I've went ahead and temporary forgot the things that's bugging me.

Mmmm. Felt a bit lighter after seeing a cleaner room, oddly.

SHREDSOFAPAGE

2009-01-18T00:46:00.002+08:00

And yet today held a surprise for me when I knew the development for Clubs. I was quite torn about it, but i know, even if i didnt want to, it'll be better that way.

Diamonds and I talked more, she isn't really in a good situation either, but right now, all I can, and want, is to give her the emotional support she may need. The place that we talked about, the place where we all belong, it'll be there, and we'll be there. (:

I told Nine today about my situation either on the way home. She was kind, and she understood and just that I am grateful for it. Thank you for listening to my soft rambles, and it was interesting, to know more of you too.

I kinda am going through some rough tearings of emotions. My family isnt of the best condition, and my lack of effort in my studies has started to affect myself due to some guilt-talk, which i then realized was necessary and of course some other pesonnal matters. Thanks for everyone who listened to my troubles, I always feel abit better when you guys do.

When Wilson and I talked, he pointed out that I looked quite emotionless some of the time, and that he had taken it as usual for it.

Well, that's not it actually. I don't put up this face normally.
It's when I'm feeling down, deep in thoughts and crap.
I don't really want to tell people more about myself, I don't want people to think im putting that face up to gain attention, to look as though i need the pity and concern all the time.
But then, in the end, after being devoid of it, I.. kinda yearn for being looked out for.
I really do hope, and want friends that cares about you welfare, not just, wish and hope that your emo period goes by quickly, and laugh around as just 'friends'
I like to be among people, I like to entertain, I like to be popular, I want to look out for friends that I know that truly cares, I want to fix my fucked up face and in my breaking heart, I like Clubs.

To Kach, fight on! I've said much to you on msn, so there's don't need to worry. I am sure we never seen you in the way you had seen yourself as, you will always be Kach.

And so what's the next hand the deck will show to me?

YUME

2009-01-16T02:06:00.002+08:00

I had a good dream yesterday night.

I visited beautiful places, I met old friends, and my current friends. We met in a mansion/palace like place, and Clubs and I had were on better terms than before. In the end someone unexpectedly turned up, which I didnt mind, and something unexpected happened, which I didnt mind more, lol, and well, when I woke up from my dream, I was grinning and wanted myself to go back to sleep, slightly cursing myself why I ever woke up. hahaha.

I enjoyed the dream, but after a few hours of Codpit i turned moody. Zzz. Lousy shits.

LINESFROMABOOK

2009-01-14T23:22:00.002+08:00

Today I just spent the longest time pondering if i should do something for Clubs. It's kinda retarded for me, just standing there and actually fearing what Clubs would think about it, but in the end I went ahead and did it anyway. Then i kinda realize that even i would stupidly fall into this kind of situation. = ,= Meh, should have just did it without fear.

Talked to Diamonds yesterday over some personal issues and I kinda felt better, it looks like we both are in the same situation, and life isnt as easy as we would have thought it would be, but I suppose we still must face these waves of issues if we continue walking down this difficult path of thorns.

Wilson is still wearing that scarf, lol, who the hell wears scarf in Singapore when it's so hot as they claim? xD Take care of that flu and flam *kabish*, we dont want our Vanguard to be the first to fall even though your'e called the Advance guard. Still eat sundaes and fries with sugar.. = =

And Faust LOL, everytime around you, can never stop laughing de. Our jokes are just damn sick but its just sibei lmao. XD

Codpit and all the personal works, it's just a few weeks after the holidays and it's already killing me. Shit.

Squirtles and Blastoise should never be used in sexual innuendo jokes.

HEART

2009-01-06T00:52:00.002+08:00

"I walk the path of the forbidden,
yearning what will never come."

2009, will be a tough year for me.

Someone told me once, "You know, I enjoy being around the funny you, being so entertaining and all, but we have never quite knew the inside of you, what you were really thinking. Sometimes you do show abit (most of the time after you wake up from naps lol), but then, we never really knew who you really are under that happy cheery self."

That comment actually stunned me a little.

I was a little confused in a sense i think, i think it made my heart go "Wasn't being cheery and entertaining good enough? Am I required to show more?" Even now, I'm still in doubt of myself and of this whole situation, plus the fact that i'm goddamn tired and feeling a lil giddy.

I didn't reply to the comment of that someone, but merely nodding my head in thought.

I can really be in need of a big sigh right now.
(and a new blogskin too.)

ASS IGNMENTS

2008-12-11T01:56:00.000+08:00

After this week, i'll update this place and skin.

I'm fed to the brim with assignments due too soon.

SPECK

2008-11-28T00:23:00.003+08:00

Ha, well, some people expressed their concern about the little tick Sam and I had. To those people, thanks, and to be honest, I didn't really out much thought into it. So if he wish to be abit more of a jerk, I'm just letting him be. xD My mind has more important stuff to handle than to be, as he might have said, "totally insulted and reacting negatively to". My art life is catching up, SJCC's schedule has been planned out, and the recent cos friends I made is enough to really make him look like a speck of dirt. lol I'm not sure as to how saw me being what he described, but truth to be told I wasn't really paying attention to his little dramatic stage show. Ha.

Anyways, to some of the important stuff, I'm finally in drive to submit something once every 1-3 days (partly thanks to him) and I recently bombed some birthday cash I had on Monster Hunter's Illustration and a few other stuff. I'm doing pretty okay on my homework side so there's nothing to really worry about except for rushing the deadlines. = 3= I have a feeling CODPIT would be a hard hurdle for us to cross though, but I'm just keeping my belief in them.

Recently started to like listening to the GazettE. Blamed the ex-president for it. lololol

REPUBLIC

2008-11-22T23:10:00.002+08:00

I went to RP today (republic poly) for the cosdance, and boy, did RP look so grand. - ,- Their architecture was actually good and appealing, unlike our crumbling dark walkways. Air con everywhere, professional lighting, glass panels and actually beautiful ponds (ours is that god fucked swimming pool tiled piece of water pewpew thing.) Reminds me of an airport xD

EOY is near, and lol, I dunno i should be getting excited by it or not, even though it's my first cosplay. - ,-

NOVEMBERTHOUGHTS

2008-11-17T06:39:00.002+08:00

Assignment due dates this week. Gonna be busy.

Had fun doing CODID o wo It's really a project that our group can discuss late into the night, and something that even Edison and Chien is willing to give their all for, partly because this concept represents them too.

Other than that the dance practices was fun too, sadly it's suspended till next week. Meh.

FREAKOWEEN

2008-10-31T23:00:00.002+08:00

Pink shirt + Pink bunny ears + A fluffy white tail is one of the WORST choice a Hawaiian fashion obsessed lecturer can wear to school. EVEN ON HALLOWEEN.

And there a few foul ghouls running amok our campus today. = ,=

I figured out why Singapore doesnt have Trick or Treats, because they'll probably spray salt on you when you ring their doorbells.

WEIGHT

2008-10-28T22:50:00.001+08:00

Not really feeling good lately, bogged down by many personal promises that I'm failing to keep.

Guess this is stress? Funny though, I was really never one to care much about that.

14

2008-10-22T22:26:00.001+08:00

My dear friend 14.

Better know your place (literally) lest you get fucked up by the King (literally).

EFFIN PWNED.

BERFDEY

2008-10-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

Oh wow 4 months gap post, I'm made of phails. D:

So today marks my 18th birthday. Nothing special really. Just that after a few years of uncelebrated birthdays a few of my friends passed me some gifts and birthday wishes this year, it's all kinda new to me again. xD

Thanks alot guys, really.

I like Blackforest cakes btw. o 3o lololol

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So many things happened xD. You guys at SJCC really are quite a bunch to handle. But then again it's really those times we spent that really made us together. - 3-

And yesh thanks Chien for your Bdae wishes. Though you mistaken it at Sunday morning to be Monday AHAHAHA. xD

8D

2008-06-20T16:38:00.001+08:00

LIFE HAS A NEW MEANING!!

I just got my new earphones, damn I miss music in the ear so much after the last one was spoilt like weeks ago ;_;

Nuuuh this place is abit dead, should be changing a new skin soon.

STREETFEST08

2008-05-27T03:32:00.004+08:00

Went to streetfest at Sunday. Was kinda fun as a first timer to vosot one but a wee tad boring for me since there wasnt much for me to do except to see around,

and to lead a group of SJCC kids. lololol.

I took little pictures compared to what a digital camera can do, but ill just post here what some of our members wore. o wo

This is Azmah...

Sam, mother for the day. lolol.

Eileen with her convincing fake long hair.. haha

Wilson, my counter-part. And yes this is a GUY you are looking at. lolol

There was alot of cosplayer that day, but i daresay there were only a few good ones. Saw a RO sage which was pretty good, along with some others lol, but these are just my own opinions = w=

nya.

OHEMGEE<\HTML>

2008-05-19T20:09:00.003+08:00

Okay at first i really hated html and css shit coding.

But after a few bloody days of being forced into typing those ancient bloody runes into NOTEPAD i sort of got a hang of it... so it wasnt that bad.

Hey i could even start doing blogskins. o wo

Kaaaay quick post. Have to go back and finish up that page of coding. = []=

MASKOFTHE (=

2008-05-13T02:41:00.002+08:00

I tend to smile, even when i know i myself is faking it. That's my facade for staying in control even i myself know that I'm pretty sensitive.

I guess it's just this defensive phase i put myself in whenever people, regardless of whether in spite or in their amusement comments on something so blatantly that it is obvious that was meant to be a personal attack. I would comment and reply that I don't give a hoot about what was said and just laugh it off in front of others.

But deep inside I feel fucked up and pissed.

Yes, of course I could take obvious jokes, we laugh along, that's fine. But that doesn't mean people won't take to heart the shit that was meant to be provocative. You stupid enough to thibk people would just feel good hearing you pointing out an obvious sign saying they suck? But really, would you not think we ourselves doesn't know better? Have they even seen any decisive moments where we were blaring and bragging otherwise? Have you got no bloody idea what politeness is?

If yes, well we probably deserve every single shit of it.

If no,

just shut the fuck up.

It may be fine for others, but I don't find it 'fine' for me. I take these types of things deeply and would rather you think before you speak. Find better ways to criticize someone's weak points and it'll be a day longer you'll live without people plotting to stick a knife in your head.

Don't go judging people by how they would appear to you, it was just that I never had the intention to stick out amongst us, but that doesn't mean I'm weak

SUNSHINEINABAG

2008-05-05T22:15:00.001+08:00

Many homework, many things in cca to take care of, many shit to handle.

puurrrdy busy. = __=

WTH

2008-04-11T02:35:00.002+08:00

Okay yah shit. This just hit me a little while ago.

I have NO FRIGGIN IDEA why Ms Pat said that the DEPUTY PRINCIPAL wants to see me.

I have to wait for her email for more info.

D:

OGL

2008-04-11T02:25:00.002+08:00

TWO WORDS AS AN OGL

INSANELY FUN

Met alot of new friends that I would have just normally passed by whenever i see them, learnt new things as an in charge and yesh, organizing those mass games was the most damn fun thing i did.

I met a freshy named Wilson, sadly he's in DET. lol. OKAY he looks better than me, but his interest is somewhat the same as mine - all those jap culture.

The mass games, LOL. Okay the four of us did manage to come out with some really fun ideas and it was damn funny to see some of the freshies trying to act out BAN-KAI and Captain Jack Sparrow at the charades and the squeezy squares was really something for them to get "up close and personal". Brains and Brawns LOL, I really pity the guy who had to be groped at the butt all the time he was being lifted.

Now that I think about it, some of the games were really perv. HAHAHA.

and yes, although the OGL dance was superbly embarrassing, I still enjoyed it. (:

Really glad that I didn't drop the opportunity to ask gaile for an OGL spot when I saw her. :D

AAA

2008-04-07T00:55:00.002+08:00

I was elected as the head of AAA of my CCA, Anime Addicts Anonymous consisting of the Manga, Doujin Games and Cosplay divisions.

New authority, new environment, new opinions and new responsibilities.

I'll probably misuse them.
Abit.

Nyahaha.

WARNINGSIGNS

2008-04-03T12:22:00.006+08:00

http://zoned.dk/plug.php?e=usergal&s=viewfol&fid=8

I want some of those for my doors.

JIESHENG

2008-04-02T21:37:00.003+08:00

To Jie Sheng if you ever read this blog of mine.

Just to let you know that the other 4 of us will be here to listen to your probs if you need to. (and I'm sure the other DMD10 members too.)

Coz we are friends, okay?

See you in school in the second sem.

GOODFRIDAY

2008-04-02T21:19:00.001+08:00

I've always thought Good Friday was in April.

= __=

APRILFIRST

2008-04-01T21:46:00.002+08:00

I just got married to a guy I had a crush on since i was 6.

:D

...No, wait, shit.

YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO LAUGH.

> _> ~~Happy~~ April Fool's Day

And yes I got my third wife back from leon. I am very happy.

GODDAMN

2008-03-28T01:01:00.002+08:00

CCB I LEFT MY EARPHONES IN THE MRT AND CAN ONLY GET THEM BY MONDAY.

fuckfuckfuckfuck no music in-the-ear till then. Goddamn i feel like some drug addict that cant get high without my daily dose of jabs/shit. I want my musiiiccc D:

And it's totally different with an ear phone in the ear and turning ur speakers full blast.

Anyway thanks leon and esmond for helping me take care of it and also contradicting myself for blaming esmond who wanted to play Bleach that made me left the earphones there, although it's totally my fault. YES IM TALKING CRAP.

GAAAAH /headdeskheaddeskheaddesk

On the other note the buffet was good, that 28 bucks spent was worth it, and i still suck at CS.

the game i most probably excel in is Guild Wars but sheesh, nobody likes to play games that needs brains and tactics huh.

= ___=

2008-03-22T21:28:00.003+08:00

I did pretty OKAY for this sem but as usual i felt i could have done better.

C+ FOR DIGITAL IMAGING WHAT A FUCKING SHAME SIA.

and i thought my photoshop-ing skills were quite good. >.> STUPID VECTORS.

and my SP2 C...

But anyhoo, im pretty sure how rotten my grades might be, i'll land in Games.

~~If i were to land in IM or Animation ill let a cow loose and rape the mods who put me in there.~~

Time flies too fast, its 20+ of March already...

ALVINSEIGHTEENCHAPTER

2008-03-08T00:08:00.006+08:00

Alvins bdae chalet was a bang. Met new friends and played new games. HAPPY BDAE AL.

And sorry for the reciept， Was thinking of changing the shirt if it was too big for you but i forgot about it still being inside LOL D:

I guess I finally get to understand whats the feeling of getting high after taking in more and more booze, though imo it's just fighting against your brain to stay awake. xD

Al did not get dunked. nor did he get creamed by the cake. A pity. = 3=

Esmond does not know how to do a split deck shuffle. LOL.

During the drinking game. haha, Esmond keep making a screwed up face whenever he drinks and Sam got pretty high during the game. haha.

XD Hope you enjoy your gift aL

HAH

2008-02-29T20:27:00.002+08:00

STUDIOPROJECT IS OVER BITCHES

GAHAHAHAHA!

*collapse on bed z.*

MREDWINHENGSWORDSOFWISDOM

2008-02-24T22:43:00.001+08:00

Best Years Of Our Lives: And It Was To Be A Manageable Paper.

This is my band teacher in charge, Mr Edwin Heng. He is now the HOD of English and i can say he is (in my very honest opinion) a fine balance of a high bred gentleman and a good dosage of insanity, for my level that is. (And yes that also implies that I'm mentally weak.)

I guess his post also appeals to our art.

OUR CREATIVITY IS JUST THERE. IT'S JUST THAT THE DRIVE AND DETERMINATION TO ACHIEVE AND UNLEASH IT'S FULL POTENTIAL IS LEFT 50 MILES BEHIND OUR ASSES AND WE DON'T FEEL LIKE PICKING THEM UP.

YAAAARRRGGHHH!!

D8<

STUDIOPROJECTTWO

2008-02-24T00:14:00.002+08:00

Been purdy busy these 2-3 weeks, since SP2 kicked us forcefully in our faces. Admist all that frantic frequent animation room visits, FFT/MHF2, Dota and "Pottyfolio"(as Rafiq would call it, lol), life still creates moments where you'll have to stop for awhile; rethink crucial/memorable moments and savor what you have in your hands while reaching out to others sharing, and reestablishing bonds and links that we were once shy to reach out for.

HOKAY, emos part's over.

I cut my hair just this afternoon. My dad wasn't happy on how my "short" hair was such a -big- difference from his. = ,= I mean, c'mon, it's my hair. Mmmmmmyyyyyyyy hair, not a wig of his.

Talked to Joel chan just now, he's doing fine, and i found out from him that he had to stay in JC for 4 years(he's in special course thingy where u enter JC at sec 3). I mean, wow, even I may not be able to bear staying in NYP for 6 years. @_@

JOBS. yeah jobs, Sam, where is the job info???? Have to apply noooooow D:

Back to the A4 poster of the rick sack.

THEBLACKEIGTHBALL

2008-02-18T21:10:00.003+08:00

After SP2 today (which the amount of animation i did was minmalistic), Alvin, sam, esmond, clarence, rafiq and I went for pool after lunch with a few more people. I didn't intend on playing it and was just prepared to sit by the side and watch them play, but then I couldn't resist the invitation when Clarence and Alvin asked us to join them.

Okay, handling a cue isn't one of the thing i would say I'm very good at. It keep slipping upwards when i try to take a shot at the white ball, it emmiting a flimsy "piak!" and rolling awkwardly around as if it was laughing out "HAHA YOU WEAK SHIT AIM PROPERLY" (thus issuing around lots of foul balls) = ,= But I did manage to get a few good shots in(1 or 2 only xD) so I did feel abit more confident in this game.

Had a feeling that the people i played against was going easy on me though x .O since by the end i was only losing by 1 ball or 2.

Anyways, looking forward to DoTa later. I'm noob with that game, since i only touched it for 2 weeks then forgot everything about it = _=;;

MAYFOURTEENTH

2008-02-17T13:26:00.000+08:00

May 14th came, and today it went away.

I'm glad this was resolved and an apology was heard, but I just wanted to say "It's okay." (:

Life turns a onto another new page again huh.

ANOTHERDAY

2008-02-16T10:12:00.000+08:00

So yesterday i was feeling not-so-motivated to do my animation, but looking at the current progress of ony having 21 frames and only a week+ left to do everything including the package and the rest of the animation and portfolio....

damn, i better stop depressing myself nya D:

Bleached with rafiq, esmond, fidelis and sam ystd outside the studio (bleached.. lol, as in PSP), I wanna say how much i hate Yami, that waddling dim-witted trolling oaf.

Tried to take pictures of our classmates during our slot for the animation, but all i got was crap shot. Needed u guy's faces for a special project I'm doing on now, so if i ask please cooperate kay? :>

Sam's Maya took a whole lot of time to render and stuff, and since we had so much time in our hands we decided to wait for him till about 6+. Hah, his friends that were waiting for him must've been pissed. Now he said that he owes us his life.

What can you do with a person's life? lol

Oh yes, Cheryl gave all of us a bag of chocalates. Thanks alot! Too bad there wasn't any marsbars :P

Oh I ate the yellow tolblerone already when i took this pic xD

2008-02-16T10:09:00.000+08:00

Coudn't acess blogger or Firefox starting Google page yesterday night. No idea why, thought it was a virius but did a few scans in my comp and ran Ad-aware check and nothing came up, so I'm not pretty syre what's going on here. The link to blogger suddenly worked, though the google age is still down.

I posted my experiences at cheryl's bdae at the class blog, go enjoy the vids.

BR SS

2008-02-12T19:33:00.000+08:00

Cheryl's birthday celeb at Aloha Luoyang was really fun. I'll really tell them out now but I'm just too dead tired to properly say anything.

I miss my pillow. The Aloha chalet's bed were like rubber.

.

2008-02-12T19:11:00.000+08:00

Been donkey months since i last blogged.

2007-06-05T19:53:00.000+08:00

Went out with my Guild Wars friends to Orchard on Sunday, meeting up with our guild leader was a surprise! Like, omg! Uncle! lmao. I was the youngest there, since the 12 yr old didn't come since we did no wanted him to anyway, too much complications.

Went to starbucks to chill and talk more about GW, and most of us delved into gamings lol, even our uncle leader, xD 7 dollars on a Chocolate Chip ice-cream thingy drink, was a big stab to my wallet lol though we did see some chio girls walk past on several occasions. Then went to cinie(sp?) leisure to browse through some games near a lan shop.

saw 3 six years old playing DoTa, and trust me, they were, not bad at all, though one of them did shock us by swearing along the way. o.O Kids these days are getting scarier , few years later maybe kids can drive.

Nothing to write about today, CODID was shitty as usual, did not bring my heart down to school, though some ppl from the 10 started giggling after i started to present my work, don't know what was their problem and I'm not interested to know anyways. Zz.

COMMSKILL HW LEFT. Blooooody hellll.

2007-05-20T13:17:00.000+08:00

I got a new handphone! lol.

Its ma new Nokia 6300. beats that stupid old queer functioning Sony shit anytime.

It comes with a camera too, woozorx!

And new HP no.

:D

Oh btw to Audrey: Get well soon.

2007-05-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm here again.

...

right, erm, blogging isn't really my thing, I never really kept a journal. But i'll try. (:

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Humm, with re: to the prev post i made.

Things are quite cold and quiet between the group and me right now. I guess it's quite best for me to keep a little distance off from them before i try to befriend them again. Things are going quite smoothly i guess, Clarence is talking to me as usual after a while, so is Sam and Esmond, and not forgetting Rafick, Leon, JS and Fil. They're all nice guys.

Hope this little flick will be forgotten soon, i'm constantly reminding myself not to get too close to the girls, unless some desperate measures arises, which i hope that it won't rear it's ugly head soon enough.

Crazy Friday is still on. semi-formal or headgear, but wearing headgears in class may have a wee tad prob, it may be rude for the peers. I discussed with Sam about this, but i'm not sure of the verdict yet, seems like it wont change.

*croses fingers* let time say i suppose.

Homework!

killjoy

2007-05-15T02:46:00.000+08:00

This entry has been torn away. It looks as though it was meant to be forgotten.

There's nothing interesting left here. Turn the page?

Yes <--
No